the past

These days, I am really missing how things use to be. Life use to be so easy. Why does it have to be so hard now? I think I have forced myself to grow up within the last 2 or 3 years, and I really didn't have to. I should live life how I want to live it, not how I think people think I should live it. I should know its ok for me to go out and party and not remember how I got home, right? I guess I just think that is only for people who are in college or are just 21?? I dont know. I guess I am scared of how people will look at me and what they will think. I want to go out to the Midway like old times and dance the entire night and drink and have Darrick carry me out to the car. I use to be fun!!! Now, I won't even dance when we go out? Why is that? I am still young! I guess that's what I have been missing a lot here lately, how things use to be!

whew!

What a weekend! Friday night I had to work 9 to close, it was pretty dead, but Kelsey and I had a good time, and we still made pretty good bank. Saturday, I woke up early I think 8:30, that's early for me on a weekend, and snuggled with Darrick til 9:30, then I got around and started getting ready for work 12-7. It was a pretty good time. I got all of the cleaning done first thing when I got there, and we had LOTS of bikes in, so again, I made bank. Saturday night, I thought we were gonna go out or something, but we ended up going to Steak and Shake for supper and then we were home and in bed at 10:30! haha oh well, we still had a great time. Sunday was spent cleaning and doing laundry. I went down to my moms for a little bit and helped her vaccum. That was just great. I also got to visit Diva and Molly! Stacey came there too with the kids and hung out for a while, then I went to meet Darrick at 4:30 for softball practice. After that we came home, cleaned up and went to the Hilton for supper. It was a good weekend, I didnt cook all weekend and had a great time! I don't have any uppercase living parties next week, so that is something I am looking forward too. It seems like some weeks I am very overwhelmed because of all the work I have to do once I get home, I just can't relax. Dont get me wrong though, cause I love the UL! Anyway.....we had a busy weekend, and I hope the weather this week will be nice, I want to be able to get outside and just play with the kids this week.

time change

ouch! Has this years time change really kicked my butt. I think it's been like this for everyone though...I wonder why. So yesterday, while Alec was napping, Nina was watching John and Kate and a Baby Story most of the morning, so I decided to catch up on some sleep. Thank goodness Alec let me have a few precious moments to rest the eyes. Then, today, I slept till 6:50, yah and I have to be at work at 7:15! haha I even had time to do my makeup today! I am GOOD! I guess it's because I am not going to bed until 11 or 12 cause I am not tired. I wish I could get back on schedule.

Today I have a dr.s appt. It's for my heart. Just a checkup to see how things are going. I haven't seen a cartiologist for 9 years! haha so it's time for me to go. We shall see how everything pans out, my guess is no change.

Also later today Alec and I are going to the library for baby lap sit. I think he will like this. He does pay attention to people when there is activity going on, so hopefully he will like it.

Tonight, I am getting my hair cut and colored. Hopefully all goes well. My last experience was awful, so we'll give it a try. I am just going to go dark all over cause I don't think there is anyway someone could fix the disaster that is there. Anyway, I think I will try to do this blog thing more often. :)